Just Wondering

It has been one year since I had a miscarriage. Something that seems so common and something probably no one else even thinks about has had such and impact on my life. Probably not a day goes by that I don't wonder. Was the embryo undeveloped or was it a perfect life that my body could not sustain? Was it a boy or a girl? What would we have name her (him)? I don't question why. I know I'm not big enough for such a question. My trust is in the Lord. He opens wombs and he closes them. He gives and takes away. Someday I hope to meet the little life that occupied my womb for too short of a time on the other side. For now, I'll just wonder...